Fear of experiencing miracles comes from our deep-seated unworthiness that we are not worthy of love. We need new experiences—miracles—that contradict our limited sense of self. We are afraid to drop the mask and experience our power because we think we misused our power and are afraid of experiencing it again. The ego would keep us small. So, “A Course in Miracles” reminds us of how worthy we are. You are worthy of experiencing miracles. The mind has a deep sense of being not worthy, but the Spirit is trustworthy and worthy of your trust in Him. The belief in being unworthy of love runs deep in the mind, but it is a worthy task to allow feelings of unworthiness to come up for healing. Healing is something you’re worthy of, and you can embrace your own self worth now.
Look at your thoughts. Are my thoughts fearful? What is the purpose or motive underneath? Believing there is spirit in matter, in doing certain behaviors, is to miss the point. Let those thoughts go. You are a saint in training. Purify your mind. Begin to think of yourself as holy. Focus on your mind, not form. Remind yourself, “I am worth the goal of peace of mind.”
Resistance can take many forms. Bill Thetford was afraid to teach because he thought it would weaken him. So, Jesus told him ideas are strengthened as they are given away. And Bill did learn to extend. The unworthiness blocks must be washed away. Helen carried guilt about ancient mistakes so Jesus helped her to see that the past never happened. We are worthy to have creativity flow through us.
Specialness is all we’ve known, and the painful part is exposing it. There is seemingly a lot of heartbreak in this unconscious belief in loss. But as you go through it and get deeper into your purpose, you realize you will only be content with a happiness that is everlasting, that won’t go away. Having the constant purpose of forgiveness will unify your perception and stabilize your emotions. You have to go through the darkness to the light. When that intense emotion of specialness is coming up, and you look at it so you can release it, it really has a different purpose.
You have to be willing to be wrong about everything; expose it and trust you will be embraced. Let the self-concept crumble. You may hesitate to connect. Do it. Spill the beans. Unconditional love is there and will wash it away. Feelings of unworthiness are buried, held deep in the mind. Healing occurs when they are exposed into awareness. Through “A Course in Miracles,” Jesus reminds you that you are worthy of love and that the love is there when things crumble. ACIM points you towards your true identity: a love beyond this world. You are so worthy of love.
David Hoffmeister responds to a question about vanity and pride and how to deal with wanting to be recognized and/or to be in the spotlight. The important question is always, “what is the purpose?” You are here to experience the constancy of divine Mind. You won’t find it in trying to change your behavior or in self-improvement. Those all still involve pride, trying to come up with a better self. But God created us perfect. You don’t have to prove your worthiness. You are already perfect. Simply trust and you will be carried through to the experience of your perfect purity and innocence!
The Holy Spirit is here to undo the faulty perception of the world and give you a new way to look at the world. When you start to follow your inner calling, you start to draw forth witnesses to the love inside of you. You will have a new purpose that will lead you to happiness. You are pulling your mind away from the ego. The goal of the Spirit is Awakening and the goal of the ego is sleep. These two goals don’t have any meeting point. You can’t serve two masters. All you are called to do is to follow your calling.
Do you ever have the thought, “I feel like I’m getting nowhere” or, “What is the point of all of this?” You are recognizing that you’ve got amnesia! The addiction of time and all its imaginings made a seeming escape so deceiving we’ve forgotten the original separation! The Holy Spirit is the only one that can lift us out of the maze. It’s not always pretty as we are weened off our drug. But the Holy Spirit’s way is through teaching us that joy can be seen as the constant, even if we still think we are not quite there yet. David Hoffmeister suggests we need a support group for linear time addiction, just as someone addicted to a drug needs support. “Hi, my name is so-and-so, and I believe I am a linear being!”