Are you holding on to the belief in sacrifice? The ego-mind believes that sacrifice is possible. When you practice having the awareness that everything is mind, this belief in sacrifice comes up into question. How could sacrifice be real, if everything is mind? This questioning is an opportunity for a resurrection in the mind! Holding on to a belief is what gives seeming life to an identity that is separate from the Love of God. Therefore your true identity seems covered over by this belief, much like a cloud covers the sun.
Allow yourself to feel what you feel without judging it. Don’t conclude anything about your identity as a result. Suicidal depression is the conclusion that your life is worthless, but your ego laughs and pursues you beyond the grave. Just let the feelings come and go, release them.
How did Jesus not suffer? To the ego, it looked as if Jesus was suffering on the cross with nails in his hands and feet. Why do we see this event as suffering? Because the ego made up suffering. And, when we see suffering, we are looking with the ego. It made up the appearance of the body, the nails, and the cross. It made up an innocent lamb and the judgment cast upon it. Yet these are all mere concepts, mere duality. The mind that has been healed of all concepts rests in a freed perspective, or state of Christ.
When you are in your Holy Spirit-given function you are guaranteed to be happy. When you seek for happiness through external means you will always feel incomplete. Think about Hollywood. In Hollywood there is great wealth, fame, glamor, and glitz. The ego says if you had those things then you could be happy. But it’s apparent that it’s not really the case! Instead you see suicide and depression! Why is it that the people that have most of the things that the rest of the world is looking for, aren’t happy?
Do you ever notice depressed thoughts in your mind or feel suicidal? Spirituality takes the stigma off of suicide because you realize life is not of the body. The body never lives or dies. “A Course in Miracles” is taking us into a state of mind in which we see that hell, upset, and the death wish are synonymous with wrong-mindedness. Joy, peace, happiness, and clarity are all synonymous with right-mindedness. The important decision is who am I aligning with: the Spirit or the ego? You realize heaven is reached through the choice for life. Expose the valueless death wish and choose resurrection of the mind. Everything is the result of a decision, the outward picture of an inward state of mind. Choose a miracle!
Any upsetting thought is just a thin veil drawn over intense rage. Death is a decision. What happens to you, you have asked for. Atonement is accepting the correction that has already been given. Forgiveness is a life wish. The ego is a death wish. The prerequisite for accepting the correction is to see the death wish as in your mind. First you must understand that your problem is always a perceptual problem; you are seeing something that is not there. Once you admit this then you can accept the answer, the guidance of the Holy Spirit. The solution is never a choice in this world; nothing in the world needs to be saved; only the mind can be salvaged. Face your darkness, your belief in lack. You are worthy of moving through it to perfect happiness. God’s plan for you cannot fail. The world is escaped through life.
Healing through relationships is practical. Use the relationships that you have in your life now to heal your mind and awaken. You don’t have to be in a monastery chanting “hail Mary” or “om!” It is possible to go through your day and listen to the Holy Spirit without interrupting your regular activities in any way. You will see how the Spirit can use everything you believe in: relationships, spiritual practices, the job you seem to have, the family concept. Anything you believe, the Spirit will lightly use to loosen your mind from it to help you feel more in the unified awareness, the quantum field. If you have a partner or friend, you can tell them what is on your heart.