The ego belief system is a belief system in lack. You experience cravings for basic needs, like food or sex, indulge, and are temporarily satisfied. The cravings will come again. Mind training, exposing feelings and thoughts about sexuality, is part of healing. Your perception of the body will change; you will begin to realize that your attractions are generated in consciousness. Divine purpose will fill you and take you into higher states of consciousness.
Why do I feel rage and where does it come from? How can I move past it? To see a fragmented perceptual world entails rage because it is a form of vengeance. To see form means understanding has been obscured. You do not know your own best interest. The ego is the grievance producing your current context and rage is bound to come up. If your context involve following, you may see your leader as unfair and feel rage. The leaders’ guidance about tasks is appropriate. It may be strong. It is a witness to what you want in your heart, which is to break through that anger and resistance. You are never upset for the reason you think. Your anger involves a misperception, the ego trying to pin it on a person, a form. This is not its cause. The rage is tied to all of perception. Your companions are here to help you move through it.