Spirit will draw forth mighty companions with whom there is a feeling of safety to expose things. But this should be done with discernment, under guidance.
To be able to trace everything we say, do, think, feel, and touch back to mind takes a considerable amount of mind training. ACIM daily lessons serve as tools to help the mind reorient itself. It is quite common for years and years of humbling to accompany the mind training, before one can truly see that all perception is an impersonal non-located state of mind. When you start to get the awareness that everything is a thought, it is blatantly simple. This is what Workbook Lesson 23 of “A Course in Miracles” refers to: “I can give up this world by giving up attack thoughts.”
Why hold on to a little autonomous role, even that of being a spiritual person? Nothing repetitive, no spiritual ritual, will take you to the holy instant. Only the desire of your heart will take you home. You can have a spontaneous Awakening just from following your intuition. What Jesus is saying in A Course in Miracles can be paraphrased as, “You can see this world without any help. But you need help to see another world. You need help to have spiritual vision. You need a lot of help to come back to remember who you are as the Christ. Yet you can see this world without help.”
Autonomy is a more subtle form of specialness. God creates and creation is extension. Spirit creates Spirit. This is what Jesus calls true autonomy. What counts as autonomy in this world is independence, which is a false sense of autonomy. The spiritual path leads to the realization that “I Am-ness” is so more vast than we can imagine. There are many praises of autonomy in Western culture and great fear can arise around the idea of losing personal independence. However, both personal identity and collective identity are false constructs. Complete God-dependence is a feeling of trust and being completely taken care of without any risk.
The word “having” is used very strangely on this planet, as a synonym for what you believe you possess. To the Spirit however, having is equated with being. What you have is what you are which is the Self as God created you. Therefore, you are in need of nothing. Love does not possess and Love is who we are. It is our identity, not something we possess, and this confusion is the central issue. Possessing involves “thing-ness” and a belief in parts. This belief in parts, and the possession of the parts, blocks the awareness of Love.