I see only the past and I can relax now, knowing that all I need to do while I seem to be in this world is to listen to the Holy Spirit and follow His guidance. I don’t have to strive for anything or to set any goals, because I see only the past. I don’t have to think about what to do in the future, because I see only the past. I have no control over the world I made, and never did, because I see only the past. “This world was over long ago” (T-28.I.1:6) and I rest in this Holy Instant, now. “I see only the past. This idea will be very important in our awakening, because this idea must be first acknowledged before an experience can come that is beyond it. This idea is so important that the first six Lessons of the Workbook are all based on it. You might say it is a very fundamental step on the seeming ladder of awakening. There will be ideas that will come along that may seem very radical like, “the script is written”, an idea that seems very perplexing to students of this Course, but actually, is just another form of this lesson number 7, “I see only the past.” So, when we say “I see”, it means “I perceive.” I perceive a world of images, a world of sequenced images that seem to come one after another in what seems to be called daily life, in what seems to be a linear cosmos, moving from past to future in that direction, and yet all that, all those perceptions are based on the past. The meanings that are seen, experienced, are based solely on the past. If everything I perceive is the past, it can show at once how delusional are the thoughts and images that pass the mind. I say delusional, because if you think of this in terms of making a series of choices that all seem to be different throughout the day, choosing this over that, choosing to stay or to go, preferring one thing over the next, watching your eyes be drawn to one thing instead of another thing, planning the day, having a schedule, following a calendar, you are presuming that there is something going on other than the past. There seems to be something actively present and actively unfolding in the direction of the future. Presumptions of seemingly different locations in time and space, different increments of time, some much shorter and tinier, some much, much longer, all rest on the belief that this world is somehow dynamic and unfolding.”
Grief and Sadness
Part of the spiritual journey is to heal the beliefs in sickness, pain and death. These beliefs can feel very ingrained to a mind that’s identified with the body. It can seem frightening to take a closer look at these thoughts when we’d rather avoid them. When faced with thoughts of death it can seem intensely fearful, our instant reaction can be to distract away from the fear, but these can be used as mind expanding experiences. In handing all of our thoughts over around sickness and death we can let the Holy Spirit interpret and heal our perception around these beliefs to free our mind from suffering.
When someone is crying, we usually perceive it as the release of deep emotions of sadness or joy. But the truth is that everything we see on the screen of the world was projected for the purpose of keeping us from knowing who we are. Separation is the name of the ego’s game, and perception is its playing field, and it relies on the “I-know” mind, the assumption that we know what things mean, to keep us in the game. The Holy Spirit wants to use perception instead for the purpose of bringing us back to a state of “unified playing,” which is the happy dream. Forgiveness is letting the Holy Spirit show you the world anew, after you have released all meaning that was given to the world.
What does it mean to be honest with yourself? If you think you are a person bound by time and space, then you haven’t been honest enough. Therefore, first things first: you need to turn towards getting truly honest, and never look back. Be honest with how you feel. You don’t have to try to avoid the emotions. You can have an attitude in your heart of, “Show me, guide me. Expose what I believe in.” What lies beneath your upset?
What can you do when you feel betrayed? The game of guilt, rage, and blame has gone on long enough! It’s time to end it. For David Hoffmeister, “A Course in Miracles” mind training helped him to see anger in a new way. David shares that in his own life, his biological father seemed to have a great deal of anger. He was able to really look at his perception of another body’s rage. It wasn’t anger directed at him. He saw that everyone in the world is doing the best that they can do within their belief system. Each body is just acting out a belief system; acting out a role as if it’s an identity.
Sadness is a form a depression. In “A Course in Miracles,” when Jesus talks about depression, he says that depression comes form being deprived of something you want and do not have, but we must remember that we are deprived of nothing except by our own decisions. We must decide otherwise. The ego will associate this feeling with a specific form, but the image is never the cause. Everything you experience is your decision. By contrast, the Holy Spirit is always calling you into present joy. There are no goodbyes in the holy instant. Follow guidance spontaneously.
Pain is a strong calling for the love that is right beneath it. Don’t try to figure the pain out or distract from it. See it as an opportunity to correct perception. Being miracle-minded is the best protection. Take an active approach to align with Spirit. In the Holy Spirit’s interpretation, there is no error. Forgive your misperceptions of pain or upset. You have a glorious Source and the sourceless ego can’t harm you. Crying can let painful feelings up and out.
What’s it all about? As we actually begin to put the Kingdom of Heaven first, we enter into a conversation with the Inner Teacher, the Voice for God. Truth starts to dawn upon the limited mind as you question your goals and the motives for the choices that you make. Pleasure and pain, past and future seem like opposites to the ego, but the insanity of this duality is soon revealed to the open and teachable mind, for they are literally the same. The illusory nature of the idols and images you value here becomes obvious.
The ego made the world. All miscreation comes from the belief in separation from God. Forgive the belief in separation. See that you have a perceptual problem. You have had a major break with reality, which is psychosis. If you’ve ever noticed the thought, “I feel crazy sometimes, what’s wrong with me?” then you are becoming aware of the insanity! You are hallucinating. Pray to the Holy Spirit to show you, convince you, of the truth.