Salvation is like a needle in a haystack of false beliefs and it is our mission to find this needle. Every piece of hay which hides that needle is a thought based on a spurious cause/effect relationship: that anything of time and space can have an effect on our mind or upon anything else in time and space. Only the mind is causative and to accept this without exception is to accept the Atonement and remember true Freedom.
From Darkness to Light
If you ever find yourself making a choice between the matrix and the Source, go for the Source. Jesus is teaching us that you have to bring the illusions to the truth. Don’t ask Jesus to fix your life. Instead, bring all your crazy beliefs about your life to the light within so that they will disappear. Let the darkness come up and it will be seen in light for what it is: nothing.
Transfer of training is a powerful step into your own mind. David Hoffmeister discusses how fear is allowed to arise, be exposed, and be released through a combination of relationships and meditation practice. As you practice stillness, all relationships become your mirror. They reflect back fear or love. With new awareness, you can watch a screen of your own thoughts. You discover your own hidden beliefs! You see what you’ve been holding on to! And what you see might be what the Holy Spirit uses to help you awaken. As you look at your mirrors, ask yourself, “What issues have I been holding on to subconsciously? What have I been trying to hide by projecting it out onto others?”
Specialness is all we’ve known, and the painful part is exposing it. There is seemingly a lot of heartbreak in this unconscious belief in loss. But as you go through it and get deeper into your purpose, you realize you will only be content with a happiness that is everlasting, that won’t go away. Having the constant purpose of forgiveness will unify your perception and stabilize your emotions. You have to go through the darkness to the light. When that intense emotion of specialness is coming up, and you look at it so you can release it, it really has a different purpose.
The guidance of the Holy Spirit is always beneficial to everyone. Assignments are teaching-learning opportunities. The whole point of the mind training is to let go of everything you think you know about form and come into an experience of the content of love in your heart. The more you are concerned about content the less you are concerned with the form. The ego set up very rigid roles. The concepts and illusions need to be brought to the light, and the purpose of assignments is to come into more expansive states of mind and broader self-concepts that approach forgiveness.
You have only one true Source. As you approach the healing of the mind, you are doing a service to the whole of mankind. Your family of origin may have been a strong focus before, but now your focus “softens” or widens and begins to take on universal proportions. God did not create this world; it is a world of idolatry. We have “idolized” concepts such as romantic love and traditional family values. Don’t worry about the biblical “golden calf.” Far greater idols are concepts like “mom” and “dad.”
Pure oneness comes from being fully committed to the Spirit no matter what. Should you commit to a relationship that has darkness? You commit to go through the darkness to the Light. Helen Schucman and Bill Thetford had a testy relationship. Spirit uses all kinds of assignments. There has to be some sense of attraction, of purpose. In the Course, Jesus says the teaching/learning balance is perfect in lifelong relationship assignments. Spirit uses the body for communication, leading ultimately to communion with the One.
You have to be willing to be wrong about everything; expose it and trust you will be embraced. Let the self-concept crumble. You may hesitate to connect. Do it. Spill the beans. Unconditional love is there and will wash it away. Feelings of unworthiness are buried, held deep in the mind. Healing occurs when they are exposed into awareness. Through “A Course in Miracles,” Jesus reminds you that you are worthy of love and that the love is there when things crumble. ACIM points you towards your true identity: a love beyond this world. You are so worthy of love.
There’s a strain and internal conflict in the mind when you try to live up to people’s standards. Beyond pleasing the people around you, there is a people-pleasing the “people” that you believe you are. The conflict comes from trying to meet the standard of the ideal person you believe you should be. You cannot simply change the form of your behavior when psychologically and emotionally you have not reached that point of change. Instead, be spontaneous and authentic until you have purification of mind, where everything comes together into integrity. David shares about his own experiences releasing emotions, mourning, and facing the darkness. When joining with others, whether it is a community of two or a larger group, there is more temptation for ego sabotage and flare-ups; and along with that, an opportunity for much deeper healing.