The ego is the denial of love, a fear of real intimacy. Everyone on earth believes they are separate from everyone else. So, along with its belief system, the ego invented romantic love to take the place of divine Love. This is simply a substitute, much like a light bulb gives off light at a very minute level. Everything in this world is a cover, like a shield, against knowing our true light, which we share with everyone and everything.
When you see the healing of God’s Son as all you wish to see accomplished by the world and by time and all experiences, you will know the Father and the Son. The world was made as a distractive device, and if we do anything to reinforce the duality of the world, we cover over the oneness that we truly are.
You have been reliving the tiny instant of darkness, over and over again. Now you’re aware of it and you can turn your attention away from it. Jesus is working to pull the deceived mind’s attention into devotion and love. You’re in heaven already, only you believe you’re still in the tiny instant of terror. You’re afraid of God’s Love. Here’s where Jesus takes you step by step out of this terror, back into Love.
At first forgiveness seems to deal with specifics. As if something in the world had a real cause and effect. It may seem that something you thought you had forgiven reappears. This is an opportunity to go deeper in the mind to get at the very root of the seeming problem. One begins to see there is only one problem and one solution, not many differing problems. This is the good news!
Here is a handy decision-making mechanism: how many decisions are based on fear of consequences? Imagine if love were your only motivator. Ask, “What am I doing this for?” The fear motive is the insatiable desire to get. Let God direct all your doing. The ego thinks you need to get the job, the wife/husband, the house, the kids, etc. Ask the Holy Spirit for the real purpose of this particular decision. Do you want freedom, intimacy, love, peace? Perhaps you think you have to do a lot of things to get them. Follow Spirit/intuition every instant instead. “A Course in Miracles” is like a sharp blade that burrows down into your mind, healing it.
We are often tempted to choose where it’s not really possible. Most of the choices we make in this world are of the same order, and the questions we typically ask make no sense in Reality. Choices become easier when we follow the Holy Spirit (Peace); we will feel in harmony and flow with life. Ask only one question in any situation: “What is it for?” That’s very different from the ego saying, “What are the pros and cons here?” A mind in turmoil is not an inspired place from which to make decisions.