The reason the spiritual journey can seem so long is that the ego has invented its own "positive" which is a defense against discovering the truth of who you are. If the world was just a painful experience you would quickly feel that you have had enough of the world. The "positive" was invented by the ego to keep you trapped in duality. To only go for the positive without understanding the ego tricks doesn't really bring release. The ego has pushed many beliefs out of awareness and it doesn't want these to be remembered because it will . . .