The ego wants to hijack your spirituality. Attend to your forgiveness practice, not to form.
It is always your lesson. Everyone has a gift for you. Keep your focus on the mind training. The goal is peace of mind. This is for forgiveness, for waking from the dream. You will receive guidance moment by moment. You cannot have a spiritual career. You can’t mix commerce with Christ. Dis-identify with possessions. Purification of thought and obedience to Spirit are the goal. There is no sacrifice involved.