Transform your mind. Give away the filter that is in place that is specialness. Specialness is the desire to get. It is the ego's lens of seeing the world. Without this filter, you transform your mind into holiness; wholeness. The mind that believes it is separate is not satisfied with its self-image, so it wants to get more. The separate self wants to improve. It is constantly seeking and investing energy and time, and then feeling unsatisfied . . .