My life was based on fear of consequences. In the late 1980s, I tried to overcome my fears by going into the woods and fasting. The ego laughed at me. I realized I needed mind training. The Holy Spirit told me to read the "I Need Do Nothing" section of "A Course in Miracles" and choose the holy relationship. Spirit told me that He wanted to speak through me. So I went out to gatherings and let Him communicate through me with people in holy encounters. Now my mind is still and the communication is involuntary and spontaneous . . .