On the spiritual journey, there is a need to bring up and expose thoughts. What if you have a fear of expressing your thoughts, emotions, and weaknesses? In "The Matrix," Neo is flushed through a drain-pipe and then lifted up, out of the mess, to his companions. Say to the Holy Spirit, "I'm enmeshed in the personal. It's messy, I have anxiety, and I need help!" The Holy Spirit will lift you up. There is so much joy beyond the dismantling . . .