The belief that you could separate from Source and accomplish insanity is the "tiny mad idea" that Jesus talks about in "A Course in Miracles." The mind, in reality, cannot accomplish this. The belief that you could separate from Source is a horrific idea. It's mad. It's insane! The belief that you are a separate consciousness takes a lot of active denying, pushing out, and repressing because it is so intolerable to your mind. Your natural state is unified, peaceful, and loving . . .