The more you make major steps forward in a loving way, the more the ego rises up in defense. It's like two steps forward, one step back. Just watch the one step back, the attack thoughts. The ego backlash can seem very dark. It's the same old pattern. Don't draw any conclusions. Then find a pick-up, a reminder, such as, "Dream softly of your sinless brother." (T-27.VII.15:1) You have never been unfairly treated; that was just a misperception. Don't allow yourself to keep falling for defenses, for drama, or for games . . .