To begin this journey of Awakening can be very frightening. Getting out of your comfort zone by revealing and releasing your resistance and judgments takes courage. “Creating your own reality” is a notion coming from the ego. This is not about improving the personality, it is about letting it go and moving in the direction of the unknown. The gap between what is known and what is unknown can be terrifying. Old ways of relating seem to be falling apart and bringing us to our knees.
ACIM, like life, literally “tricks” one into seeing the truth. Together with double negatives, spectacular poetry and humor, “A Course in Miracles” pokes and prods the sleeping mind, which sometimes has to have a few jolts before it is ready to wake up to reality. No matter how familiar and convenient the illusion becomes, we know deep inside that something isn’t right.
Look at your thoughts. Are my thoughts fearful? What is the purpose or motive underneath? Believing there is spirit in matter, in doing certain behaviors, is to miss the point. Let those thoughts go. You are a saint in training. Purify your mind. Begin to think of yourself as holy. Focus on your mind, not form. Remind yourself, “I am worth the goal of peace of mind.”
We can take an honest look at how we have invested the mind’s energy: “you made it [the ego] by believing in it, so you can dispel it by withdrawing belief from it,” (T-7.VIII.5:2) says ACIM. It’s not about trusting more (you’ll just beat yourself up over that one); it’s about reinvesting your trust in that which will bring true fruition, true peace of mind. We’ve invested our belief in personal freedom and special people and places to bring us truth/peace. Loosen your investment in the personal and come to freedom as a state of mind.
Spirit has only one purpose: to extract you from the you that you believe you are in this world and take you back into the light and wholeness that is all there is and all that has ever been. The extraction process is highly individualized but is always a cleansing of the mind, a rinse that washes away all that is not of God. Let’s join in the “tractor beam of love!”
The Holy Spirit always meets you where you believe yourself to be, and so leads you out of the loop of projection. All lessons are for you. What is given, is given! You are always on the right track and always perfectly taken care of. Don’t worry, be happy, and let Awakening be done through you!
Only the thoughts we think with God are creative and have no form components whatsoever. There is no Holy Spirit’s script, only the ego script, and as long as the mind is invested in the past and wants to hold on to it, history will seem to keep repeating itself and we seem to make the same mistake over and over again.
Although the world tries to teach you otherwise, it is possible to live completely in divine providence. Lesson 50 of “A Course in Miracles” is “I am sustained by the Love of God.” (W-50) In that lesson, Jesus tells us that “In this world, you believe you are sustained by everything but God.” (W-50.1:2) By following the Holy Spirit’s prompts, we begin to trust that we will be divinely provided for in every circumstance.