The belief in separation is projected out onto specific people and situations. It’s typical for it to be experienced as anger with bosses, judges, policeman, parents; people with authority. The little-me takes the role of victim and is stuck feeling angry at the world. David quotes Alanis Morissette: “Thank you for your most generous triggers.” (Alanis Morissette, “Madness”) The ego rages at God, strangely wanting to be “right” about its misperception of littleness. If we can remember this gentle phrase from the songwriter however, we can stop the explosion of the ego and approach the truth of any situation with some grace. Taking responsibility for our own projections is ultimate and true humility.
Authentically healing anger and rage ultimately comes down to working with thoughts. Expressing anger with the body can be useful initially to break through patterns of repression and denial but ultimately it is the thoughts that need to be released.
You have complete control over your state of Mind. Everything is perception. Once you start to reel your perception of the world back in and hand it over to Spirit in your mind, you start to get really happy.
There is no cause but mind. To release attack thoughts you must see there is no difference between attacking and being attacked. Attack is not possible. Jesus teaches, “I am not a body. And my mind cannot attack. So I can not be sick.” (W-136.20:5-7) You believe you have attacked God in your mind. Attack and defense seem to be the natural order so we don’t question the idea of attack. It is the linchpin illusion.
Tired of living in this world of change, decay, and fear? The master switch is in your mind. The entire cosmos is an illusion, and the way that you don’t admit that to yourself is by making levels in the illusion. “A Course in Miracles” quotes, “there is no hierarchy in illusions.” (T-23.II.2:3) This world is made up of levels, degrees, increments, and gradations. You can call these levels judgments and you can call them preferences. Do you order everything in your world? All of the things that you perceive as differences are really the same. You are invited to join Jesus in the deep pool of unified awareness.
Relationships can help you face your rage. When you see the relationship in this way, you can actually feel gratitude. You can move quickly to the reinterpretation when you stop hiding and repressing. Instead of backing away, say “thank you” for the acceleration! The Holy Spirit will use symbols in your perception to help you face your rage, anger, and hatred. Symbols are any images that you see: other people, objects, or your own body. The Spirit is using the symbols that you made to help you get in touch with the what was pushed out of awareness.
What is all this rage about? The rage that comes up when we really seriously begin our mind-watching is not personal. It is the collective ego raising its ugly head in its last defense against God; against Truth. You can let all that self-hatred up and it will not kill you! Let all that rage up and see what’s underneath. Surprisingly, Light and Love is the aftermath of uncovering all this rage that seems so overwhelming at first.
Living “A Course in Miracles” each day will clear your mind of fear! There is a difference between speaking about something and actually living it. ACIM is not to be spoken, it is to be lived. Get in touch with what you feel. Do not use words as a defense mechanism to push down your emotions. When you let the emotions up instead of denying them with words, a transformation of the anger can happen. This is a stepping stone for coming to a decision point in your mind. There is a decision point that you are moving towards!
David is asked about what to do with the feelings of rage. When you encounter a feelings of rage inside, what can you do? David Hoffmeister shares that in his experience, people on the spiritual journey can shift quickly from expressing rage to laughing out loud. Laughter and rage cannot be in the same mind. So where can the rage be? When you flip into the higher perspective the very thing you were angry about is hilarious! Love is all that there is. When you experience that consistently, it radiates from you. Love, like laughter, is contagious.
In high school I experienced a lot of denial and repression. This had to be removed before I could feel my feelings. Although we were created in love, when we identify with the ego, we experience its feelings. As we peel away emotions, we encounter the ego’s rage. I went off into hermitage experiences to allow that rage to come up and to face it. During that phase I felt the trees and rocks could handle my anger better than people.