Allowing the shadow up into awareness gives you the chance to see it and release it. By allowing the shadow, or egoic defense mechanisms, to arise in awareness, you have a quick inroad to where true healing can begin.
Through your uncompromising focus on what is arising in awareness, the Holy Spirit can use what you give Him, no matter how counterintuitive it feels.
It is egoic conditioning to be out of touch with your emotions. The ego can be very caught up in intellectual thinking. As you get into touch with emotions, everything that has been repressed or pushed out of awareness can come up. It is a blessing.
Part of the ego training is politeness. You’ve been conditioned to please people around you. The ego wants to pretend that everything is fine. When you have a bad day, to try to keep it to yourself. When you do that, and put up a mask of being okay even if you are in pain, there is a sense of control. You control your behavior and feel you are controlling the puppet. There is a split in the mind.
When you get in touch with emotions, or those around you do, do so in a space of not taking things personally. This is mind-watching. The Spirit can use your emotions. As you express, you give others permission to do the same. The ego is not your identity, and you can question the thoughts that the ego presents. You can choose to be aware that they are simply wrong-minded thoughts. You step into your right mind.
“When you have a strong desire for healing, that really is a way of saying to the Holy Spirit, okay I am ready to allow my shadow to come up into awareness.”